Well the year is coming to a end and i can honestly say i learned alot this year. i learned my family will always be screwed up. i learned the SAT was not very hard. i also learned alot about my self. recently i was asked if i had a chance to redo anything what would it be. well after think long and hard i realized i would change nothing. this year i realized everything happens for a reason, i realized that the girl i thought i really liked i actually despise alot, i realized most of my life is based on what i do at school, i realized my family is dying off pretty rapidly, i realized my friends probably won't be here after high school. i also had some fun be it dressing up as robin for halloween or just going to the movies. but what i have really realized is my life is crazy there is nothing i can do to stop it and i just half to go with the flow or break away. i have always belived i was ment for something great that their was some big reason god made me the way i am. i am literally a on in a million type of person, but the reality is i am just a person who has a rare disease and i am going to go to college like millions of others and get a job and find that girl, and have kids and grandkids then die. that is the cold hard reality. i look at where i stand right now and i all i think iwant is to get away from this place to start knew, but what i really want and need is to be here among friends because my friends are more my family than my actuall family, after the fights that have happened this year i feel as if i am alone in my house as if i am the last of my family as if it is just me Ryan Anson and know one is here to care and support me, but none that matters what matters is the future and unfourtunetly though it really looks good it is actually not. but as of today i can not wait for christmas and i can not wait to graduate with all of my friends. so merry christmas and happy new year



Merry Swiftmas

Dear Santa, I don't know if you're listening,
But I've been pretty good this year.
And I don't know if it matters that I celebrate Chanukah,
But I hope you get my wish

Hey what do you know it's time for Christmas
And I've been acting good all year
I never have been all that superstitious
But that don't mean I hate reindeer

So Santa I don't know if you're listening,
I'm not quite sure how this works
I wanna good girl for hugging and kissing
And not a head case who only dates jerks
I don't need more toys and shinny things,
I just want a blond who likes to sing

So don't put a bow on a box, there's no need to send Megan Fox
I don't need a big mansion, so lets nicks Scarlett Johansson
There'll be tear drops on my guitar if I end up with Amy Smart
So Santa for my gift, please send me Taylor Swift

So Santa when you come down the chimney
You can skip right pass the kitchen
I know you're sick of all of the cookies,
So I got you Fearless Platinum Edition
And no one will mess with her when she's mine
And Kanye will watch him mouth next time

So I'm gonna have to refuse, if in comes Penelope Cruz
If she is a bad girl I'm sending her back
Cause Lindsey Lohan is whack (just like crack)
I'd rather have Jason Mraz, than be stuck with Cameron Diaz
So Santa for my gift, please send me Taylor Swift

I know her and I are gonna fit, Taylor Taubenfeld has ring to it

I'd rather be hanging alone, than making out with Emma Stone
Yeah I'd rather get a supina, then kick it with Angelina
And yeah I'll probably she'd a few tears, if you mess up and send Britney Spears
So Santa for my gift, please send me Taylor Swift



i thought this song was funny it kind of reflects me so merry christmas


Live life for what it is and live life because it is

Ryan Anson

lord and angels